Chapter 144: That’s what she thought of him
Chapter 144
But now, when rationality returned, and she remembered what she had done before, it only made her feel ashamed.
She originally didn\'t have the face to come back, but a divorced woman really had no way to survive in the countryside.
Shen Hongxing sat on the ground dejectedly, with tears streaming down her face, but she didn\'t cry out loud. "I know how excessive I\'ve been these past few years. Sometimes when I think about it, I even hate myself to death. But I don\'t even know what happened to me and why I suddenly did those things. It\'s as if after Da Wei and I divorced, I finally understood completely how excessive I had been before. Father Yang Jun, I know I don\'t deserve your forgiveness. It was me who harmed Da Wei. But I still hope you can give me another chance. You told me before that no matter if it\'s a son or daughter, we should send them to school. If they study well, that\'s their way out. Even if they don\'t study well, they\'ll still be better off than being illiterate. How can you bear to see our Cui\'er lose the opportunity to go to school? And Da Wei, he needs someone to take care of him now too. Cui\'er is still young after all, and it\'s not convenient for her to take care of her brother either. Please let me stay. I promise I will never make trouble again, okay?"
Yang Jun was moved, but he was afraid that after forgiving Shen Hongxing, she would commit those acts again.
After all, those two years really frightened him.
And marriage is not child\'s play. They had already divorced once. If they got back together again, there would be no chance for another divorce, otherwise they would become a laughing stock.
As for the future, he didn\'t want to think about that anymore. If it weren\'t for Da Wei\'s accident happening so suddenly, he might have already switched careers and returned to his hometown.
"Hongxing, marriage is not child\'s play. You can\'t just leave when you want and get back together when you want." Yang Jun said, "I know life is hard in the countryside. You probably haven\'t done any farm work for many years. Going back will definitely be an adjustment. But you took quite a bit of money during the divorce. Subsidizing with that, you could still live decently. If it\'s not enough, I still have some here..."
"It\'s not because of money. I really have no way to survive there!" What Shen Hongxing regretted most was the money she took during the divorce. She couldn\'t even figure out what she was thinking at the time. She clearly knew Da Wei\'s brain needed a lot of money for treatment, yet she still fought for money at that time, leaving no reserves for the child.
Even a tiger wouldn\'t eat its cub. Thinking back now, she was worse than a beast.
"Yang Jun, if you refuse to let me stay, I can only go back and be married off to an old man in the village, that old shepherd who raises sheep. If that happens, I\'d rather die."
Divorced women had difficult lives in the city, let alone in the countryside. They were even seen as worse than widows.
After living at home for over six months, there was endless gossip. She had to do all the farm work at home and endure the family\'s disdain and public humiliation, as well as the harassment from those old bachelors in the village.
Misfortune Village didn\'t have a good reputation. Over the years, dozens of disabled bachelors had accumulated in the village. Shen Hongxing\'s parents and brothers also had some problems to varying degrees. At this time of Shen Hongxing\'s divorce and return, being married off for money was normal.
Yang Jun didn\'t doubt her words. Although he hadn\'t gone back for many years, he knew about things happening in the village.
In the end, the conversation ended with Yang Jun fleeing in defeat.
Could he bear to see Shen Hongxing suffer such mistreatment? If he could, he wouldn\'t have let her take away half of their savings when they needed money most at home.
It was because he knew that with money, her days after returning would be a little better. But he didn\'t expect that in just over six months, what he was worried about still happened.
Shen Hongxing didn\'t leave, but Zhou Granny and Zhou Nan inevitably couldn\'t stay here long.
Pei Jing brought some things for Zhou Granny. After all, she had come such a long way at her age to take care of him.
It just so happened that An Zhiqing was on leave to send them home and could stay home for half a month. During summer vacation, his wife Liu Ling would come stay with their son Wen Qing for a period of time.
Over the years, this was how the couple spent their time off to visit home. An Zhiqing arranged his home leave during normal times and New Year\'s, while Liu Ling brought their son over to the army for the two months of summer vacation.
On the full moon of the fifteenth day, Pei Jing came back from showering outside, and lifted his hand to pull the curtains closed, completely blocking off the moonlight coming in.
The bed in the room was not very big to begin with. Now with two children sleeping in the middle, it was like a river separated him and Know Summer.
Pei Jing got into bed moving all the way inside. Know Summer held him and whispered, "Scoot them in a bit more."
The impression Pei Jing had of Know Summer was like a clingy little girl. Although she was already a mother of two, she was still young and it was normal for her to be a little delicate.
He obediently moved the two children inside, letting Know Summer sleep in the middle, as it would be more convenient to nurse at night, while he lay on the outside.
"It\'s late, let\'s sleep." Pei Jing put his arm around Know Summer\'s waist, and his outstretched hand could just measure the width of her waist. It was hard to imagine that such a slender place had contained two not so slender babies not long ago.
But Know Summer was not satisfied with his cold attitude. She shifted her body slightly, her fingertips falling right on the protrusion on his chest, and her lips pressed up lightly.
From the slight touch to aggressive plundering, Pei Jing also changed from passive to active.
Seeing her naughty little hand becoming more and more excessive, Pei Jing helplessly wrapped her hand in his palm, while also stopping her actions. "Know Summer, it\'s best to wait 42 days after giving birth before intimacy, until the body has fully recovered, otherwise it will hurt the body."
Know Summer was embarrassed, making herself seem like a little pervert. "How do you know? Did you ask the doctor?"
If so, it meant he was not indifferent towards her either.
"Your third brother warned me before he left." Pei Jing\'s answer surprised Know Summer instead.
"I didn\'t know my third brother talks so much. I didn\'t see that he minds other people\'s business so much before." Know Summer didn\'t blame him, she just felt it was too embarrassing.
After all, An ZhiXian himself was still single. Although he was a doctor and did know more.
"He cares about you too, just doesn\'t express it well." When they were young, An\'s several brothers all followed and grew up around him, so their relationships were all very good. Therefore, he didn\'t mind speaking up for him.
"But I feel like my body has fully recovered, just like before giving birth. There\'s not one bit uncomfortable." Know Summer pressed against him shyly, "And I just want you."
The ancients said food, sex and desire were human nature. It was normal physiological and psychological needs for men and women to make love. If you want it, then go for it. They were legal spouses, what was there to fear?
Besides, he was already 27. Men were strongest in their early twenties. Now he was already becoming weak and would go downhill in a few more years. If he didn\'t indulge more now, wouldn\'t he only be left with regret later!
Pei Jing still didn\'t know Know Summer thought this way about him. Otherwise, he would definitely regret being overly gentle due to concern for her body, making her unable to feel his restraint and endurance.