Chapter 147: Round And Round… Ends?
"Hawi no!" Rukiya said as the portal opened. She knew that this wasn't the best way out to deal with the situation, but before she could say another word she was already pulled into the portal with the broken woman.
Rukiya knew there wasn't anything they could do to make it all better because she had tried. Not once, not twice. She had tried countless times and in all that time, Hawi had locked her along with everyone out.
The Greyson Alpha wasn't asking to be Hawi's priority, but even that didn't seem to sit well with the woman who was not in her right mind.
"We just need to escape, okay? We just need to stay away, to hide from them for a moment, Maybe the voices will stop. Maybe they will stop blaming me for the death of my family. Just an hour is all I ask, Ruru, please," Hawi said as she paced around.
She was back to the only place she had ever felt safe in, which was strangely, the free lands, the place where it all began, or maybe the place where their story had tried to take a turn and had taken the worst of it all.
"Escape? Is that what this is? Are you escaping your reality because it hurts so bad? An hour? Are you fucking serious right now?" Rukiya asked, angry at the way Hawi was choosing to do this instead of facing things head-on.
Rukiya hated what was happening to Hawi and with Hawi, but she also knew that the woman wouldn't get anything done if all she did was run away. Granted, she was the strongest Alpha, but then what use was her strength when she was always down?
What use was any of that when she was letting herself be wheeled along the fallacy of alternate realities, a cruel fate that seemed so unsure of what they would do in the end? Was this even about vengeance anymore or was Hawi just tired of everything?
Was there a reason for her to hope or was this just a chance at an abnormal reality that neither of them could ever outrun? Rukiya was all soft for Hawi, but there were times when she even hated what the woman was doing, especially to herself.
"You're interesting, Rukiya Greyson," Hawi said, her eyes so cold that if Rukiya wasn't careful she would probably be frozen from the intensity of the stress she was getting from the woman.
It was almost like there wasn't a thing that she could do other than hope to the goddess that Hawi would change. Oh, but she had changed, alright, and Rukiya was staring at it right now. Then again, would Rukiya budge this time?
"Oh yeah? Interesting enough for you to fuck?" Rukiya asked before she realized what she had just said.
The Greyson Alpha was mad at Hawi, but her heat was fucking her rationality up, especially now that all she could smell and think of was Hawi's touch. It was almost like this was the only thing she lived for and wanted. Hawi controlled her even though the woman was standing there staring amusedly with an angry smirk on her face.
Hawi was fuming because of what had happened and yet even she couldn't get past the thick arousal that was coming from Rukiya. She wanted to feel it, to attend to it, to hold on to it and more than anything we wanted to reign in that damning arousal.
"So, you wanna get fucked so bad, huh?" Hawi said with a smirk as she walked over to where her Ruru was. She was glad this beautiful woman belonged to her, but at the same time, she was confused of what she needed to do.
She wasn't ready to deal with Ruru's heat and even she knew that with heat would come pups and she wasn't looking to get any at the moment. Granted she had plans for that in the future, but right now, she wasn't.
All she wanted was her father back, but even that was an impossible mission for her.
"No, I do not!... You're changing the subject Hawi. This isn't even funny…Y… You need to focus on the issue at hand. You need to understand that this isn't what you do daily. You should be aware of that, Hawi. Come on," Rukiya strained out as she stepped back.
She didn't trust himself around Hawi, which was wild because the only one Hawi trusted more than anything in the world, was the very woman who was stepping back because she wanted her mate sane and rational. Would that happen though?
"I didn't do anything, Ruru. I am here waiting for you to tell me what you want me to do. You don't want me to mourn, or see me weak, or crying and pitying myself, even though I just watched my father kill himself and the fake version of my brother disappear, after betraying me.
"Tell me, sweetheart, what would you want me to do, especially with your heat messing up my brains? If I can't complain about what's hurting me, then you sure as hell shouldn't step back from me—
"—because guess what, Greyson, you are mine in every way," Hawi said, her voice constantly changing between soft, harsh, and lusty, though right now, she sounded possessive as fuck and was not in the mood to play hide and seek with Rukiya.
She was mad at the world for everything that had happened to her, and the only distraction she could have been staring at her and stepping away. Hawi needed to forget. She wanted to forget because if she didn't forget then the world would burn.
She needed to pretend like it all didn't happen because maybe that would allow her to be one with her sanity. However, with the way things currently are where she wasn't sure she could hold her own for long.
There was only so much she could pretend before her world turned upside down forever.
"You know damn well that isn't what I mean. I understand, Hawi. I really do, but you can't always keep running, baby. You can't always keep trying to escape because in the end, everything will catch up and you might explode.
"I don't want that for you, I need you to be sane I need you to fade this head-on. I will always be here for you, and you already know that," a frustrated Rukiya said and Hawi just smiled at her like this was just something they couldn't get away from.
But what else was there? Stay with m _v _l _e _mp _y _r.
Reality wasn't a walk in the park for the both of them and their lives were taking turns like it was a long game. Well, Hawi was tired of playing the game and instead of going on, she wanted to break the game and ruin it all.
"You can always catch me when I fall, Ruru. You know how I love laying in your arms, don't you, love?" Hawi asked sensually as she created a sudden barrier around her and Ruru, stopping the woman from running away.
At the same time, she made it so that no one could see them or where they were. Hell, not even their scents could be smelled in the air, because Hawi didn't want anyone to share in the thick arousing scent that her Ruru was releasing at the moment.
"Seriously? You're impossible," Rukiya sighed defeatedly as Hawi caught up to her. She was trying to make a rational argument, though even she was aware that this was useless.
The fact that Hawi had dragged her to wherever this was, meant that Hawi wasn't here to talk about the chaos in their lives. Besides, the woman had told her that it would be just them. They may have been workaholics, but this wasn't not about work anymore.
"Well, you did say I would explode. Care to keep me in check just enough times till I let it all burn?" Hawi asked, though it was more of a statement as she stared at the thick plump lips that sat pretty on Rukiya's face.
"I can't, Hawi, not this time. I can't go through that again. And if you push me away, I'm going to tie you up and make sure to draw you with me wherever I go. Just you know that I won't leave you alone," Rukiya said with a pout as she tried to be mad at the woman before her and failed miserably.
"Ruru—"
"Don't shut me out, Hawi, please."
"Well, I was thinking of something else."
"Wh—"
"There, there, love. Let loose."